Hmmm…how should I begin, don’t go to sleep right after killing the late night after watching Seven Pounds, it can lead to some odd dreams.  (Disclaimer, if you have not seen Seven Pound, although this simply touches on some of the movie’s concepts, read at your discretion).  Being that this was the night/early morning of 12/24 I may not recall all the particular details.
 The dream revolved around the general concept that I was walking along a path that would lead to me offering parts/organs of my body to save others live, but at the eventual cost of my premature death.  Along that path I ran into/was accompanied by/befriended oddly enough the budding actress that I had a few months ago concluded could play KY Walker in the film adaptation of my yet unpublished manuscript Blue Lines.   Let’s call her Boez (not giving the name or formula).
 The narrative then lends itself to a basic concept of wanting to give to help others, at the cost of myself.  Yet over the short course of this dream, and my budding friendship, I come to the conundrum of choosing to keep my life, rather than sacrifice myself by finding people who would be served by my sacrifice.  Also some people find out that I was going to make this choice, and work to convince me to continue on my plan to give up my body/organs etc (again I watched the movie before going to sleep).
 This lends to the bigger question, what do I think this meant?  Well I took no real stake in the odd dream, and easily added up what could have lead to the dream in principle.  But I start to think of other factors as we head into a new year.  It always seems that a value at what one has done for the previous year, and how one achieved, will improve upon, will try again at a goal that they have chosen or failed upon.  At first I looked back upon this year, and the last few years.
 I would easily say 2007 was the best recent year, whereas 2008-09 would not qualify as highly.  Upon first glance, I could say that have not gone along a path that I may have chosen outright, or even that they were more tenuous than 2007 was.  And it, albeit good, was good because of security and more of the same.
 During that time I had the same job/profession/field, I could dream about one day I’ll get published (drawing back to Blue Lines the reason for this blog).  But looking back at 2008-09, I believe that the choices both good and bad, groundwork has been laid for the potential of this next year.  Therefore it is also only fitting that nearly a decade after beginning my manuscript, it is in the world and I am poised on the edge of something good.  Regardless of whether the first attempt is successful, the fact that it is out there, and I can only learn on the process is a huge benefit alone.  I mean, I have an idea of who I want to play the role of my character!!!
 
The manuscript Blue Lines is the fictional coming of age narrative of my protagonist a young California woman KYW, and her 2 year growing journey through school, love, and life.  A period piece, written by Kenneth Suffern, Jr., taking place at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill between the years of 1997 – 1998.  Loosely based on true events, and experiences during that time, told through the eyes and voice of the main female protagonist, a freshman first attending the school.
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