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What I learned Sundays.


Rest is cool, but I don’t get any.

I really do love writing, and im inspired by something again.

I was asked a question that honestly took my by surprise…I still have no answer for the question.

I like to be there when I’m needed.

When things seem bad, sometimes they are not.


I had a conversation with a friend, well this is just one of many conversations that I had with several friends last week.  My Blue Lines Blogs have touched upon my protagonist Keypsiia Walker’s character development, first directing new readers to some of my earlier posts when I began my blog, but also touching upon some revelations I made while reading a piece of fiction now.  It allowed me to be confident in writing my female my character, however it brought to light that I have not really allowed the future readers insight into how she looks.


10/8/1999 – 1:31 PM (Original Description)

Keypsiia “Key” Walker – main character, She is a freshman psychology major student at University of North Carolina Chapel Hill who plans to go on into private practice after Med-School.  She is the daughter of Cyan Abueg and Robert Walker from Sacramento, California.  Her traits lend primarily to those of “[blank]” and some comes from other females that have passed through my life.  Being the writer, my character also embodies traits of myself.  She could easily be seen as the average student or female, but under her sometimes abrasive exterior lies a complex woman.  She does not allow many to see that side of her, but Blue easily allowed her to expose her intricate inner self. (name origin: “Keypsiia” – an Indian name meaning “blue daydream” or “anointed daughter of the light.”)


Last Friday while en route to Starbucks to write in a bought of inspiration, I talked out the conundrum that had surfaced within recent weeks, what does Key look like.  Now, not to retread previously written posts, we know that Keypsiia does not look like the subject of her creation, and I was able to add a few affects of her physical description, but that leads into a discovery in this latest conversation.  This conversation was with someone who is one of the few readers of Blue Lines, likely back around 1999 – 2000 who had been around during the writing process, and knew a lot of the back-story both during the actual events, and the writing process.  While talking out some of my new revelations in a more frank nature than within the blog, one thought led to another allowing me to think of those clear, but different interpretations of Keypsiia that existed while writing my manuscript.  As Blue Lines opens with its sodden Prologue near the Moscone Center in San Francisco, I learned that in two instances of the manuscript the character is not the Keypsiia of the other 44 chapters.  The inspiration for Keypsiia’s character lives in both this opening scene, and “Discovery Park” scene of Chapter 17: Discovery.



  1. 1.                  a preliminary discourse; a preface or introductory part of a discourse, poem, or novel.

3.         in early opera

a. an introductory scene in which a narrator summarizes the main action of the work.

            The definition is interesting that yes, my Prologue does summarizes in some aspect my manuscript, I find it amusing in a strange way that the “real” Keypsiia is the character in my mind’s eye as introduce you to a character who you, as the reader, are allowed to see grow (your thoughts about her growth are yours to judge) aver the 2 years between these 409 pages (depending on which version you are reading).  These two scenes represent different aspects of my work.  The Prologue, which ranks high in importance due to both opening Blue Lines, introduces the reader to Keypsiia and her good friend Azul, and it invites you to empathize with Key…offer your concern and at least gain your interest to discover why this scene is taking place, and what place this young woman in the scene being described here.  Though posted before, a few thoughts that were fostered by reading the prologue.

“I’ve read the prologue. It’s very interesting and drawing.”

“scene was very real.  Actually, it was a little too real.  I’ve been in her position.  It reminded me of one of the darkest times in my life.  So, I definitely can relate to the character, even though it is very painful to do so.”

“Very intriguing!! The suspension on the first three pages is good; it makes me want to read on.”

But as I conversed trying to think of the right words to describe the “sitting on the Coker Arboretum bench,” Keypsiia who basked in the sun of Chapter 13:Beauty in Blue And White, or the youthfully argumentative Keypsiia at the World Wide Club in Chapter 8: Words Speak the Truth, my mind shifted my conversation to the opening of my manuscript, and how Keypsiia’s hair went from being the auburn puff that is often mentioned when her hair is pulled back, to the visually shorter haired Prologue version.  Her narrow nose from Chapter 26: Clearing For Revelations as she sat daydreaming in the rain, was wider in the clear picture painted in the manuscripts opening.

“Wow,” was all I could say to her, as I realized that there were moments where the fictionalized character of Keypsiia was not present in her own opus.  I could see that the Prologue’s Keypsiia was lifted from a real time, a real look, and a real person, and slowly implanted into the opening where I can still see the electric blue shirt, strong in its color, reflected on her chilled pale skin on this morning, and the stark black coat and pants.  Her eyes squint, and her face takes on the bitter wind as it had in the past, but not for Keypsiia in Blue Lines other than in this scene.

Granted, although the second scene where the template for Keypsiia reappears in the manuscript is surrounding a significant story arc, there are more significant transitions that solely follow the Key created within the pages of my manuscript.  I just found it funny, upon reflection that a brief real life experience (although there were other non-template experiences that bolstered Keypsiia’s character) at a library, when I was over-dressed, uncomfortable, and probably the most un-charming, disinterested mood I ever exuded, left an indelible imprint that the clothing and look of that day made their way into a scene totally unrelated to real life.

Ahhh, fell asleep on a post that was supposed to be released last night.  Well the secondary aim of this post was to introduce something I worked on for today, but I guess you’ll just get it today.


The manuscript Blue Lines is the fictional coming of age narrative of a young California woman Key Yemaya Walker, and her 2 year growing journey through school, love, and life period piece, written by Kenneth Suffern, Jr., taking place at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill between the years of 1997 – 1998. Loosely based on true events, and experiences during that time, told through the eyes and voice of the main female protagonist, a freshman first attending the school.