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This post topic has been one that I slowly phased out in 2012, with one reappearance in late 2013 due to the senseless violence, and a child being shot at that time. I met the child who survived a bullet wound to his head.

When I think of how time affects the way we think about concepts in life, I think about LOVE and the impetus to write my manuscript Blue Lines around 1998.

LOVE then was idealistic, and without a basis. We could conquer worlds. LOVE would lead us places together. To quote Keypsiia Walker’s discourse in Blue Lines taken from the person she was based on, “If two people love each other, it doesn’t matter if they have a Benz or it they have a bus pass. I think love is stronger than anything in this world.” Young love is willing to go all metaphoric boundaries.

At that time, hearing that was endearing, though I had no plan to have a bus pass. I was engaged by the passion and innocence of that statement. That was LOVE.

Subsequently, and after other friendships and relationships, the meaning of LOVE changed. Of course there is a difference in loving family and some friends. There is a difference in how you love your friends who you have a wealth of experiences with.

Loving a wife is different. In that relationship your LOVE also includes caring for that person and their best interests and growth (especially in a young marriage). There is no baseline for things that you like and dislike, and the whole world is in front of you.

♫…And you will be greater
The one that I always wanted you to be
If you can resist it
And make a commitment
And stay with me in this
Stay with me in this…♫

When that fails, and the ideals become a faint memory of what they were to be, some can become disenchanted with LOVE itself. Myself, i still believe in LOVE and marriage. Doing an honest inventory. You can also realize that people are responsible for whether LOVE works or not.

In Time…time does change things, and the way you look at things. Patience is learned in some areas, but with time behind you, you also realize what you don’t want to waste too much time on too. LOVE is affection, and feelings, and idealistic belief and want with a person. It is also realizing what you bring to the table, and communication and knowing what you want from your significant other.

♫…I won’t be lonely
And you won’t be silent
And we will be dancing
The way that we’re wanting each other to be
If you could commit to
Making me happy
And stay with me in this
Stay with me in this…♫

For me there is a metaphoric void that I am working on filling. My words sound my harsh than meant. LOVE is how things come full circle. It includes caring for that persons well being. With bringing your true selves to the relationship, no facade, for the most part. It can only have honesty. LOVE is not sharing my life here also. The want has to be there on both sides of the relationship, and it is.

♫…Your hands on my body will resonate through me…♫

Recuerdo tus manos en mis manos, y conozco que mi corazon sera abrir para ti.

The manuscript Blue Lines is the fictional coming of age narrative of a young California woman Key Yemaya Walker, and her 2 year growing journey through school, love, and life period piece, written by Kenneth Suffern, Jr., taking place at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill between the years of 1997 – 1998. Loosely based on true events, and experiences during that time, told through the eyes and voice of the main female protagonist, a freshman first attending the school.