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So eager to have what we think we need,
Based on emotion and no thought,
You always felt it unheeded,
The qualities it brought,
But it created confusion,
I watched you age before my eyes,
Your youth and strength diminished,
I struggle now each day, because,
Of your immaturity,
I’m seeing less of you each day,
In the time we spend,
From fully able, to invalid by choice,
I die each day, as I watch you whither away,
My life always included your mistakes and decisions,
My heart invaded by pain,
I just want you here,
Your sins, I long since forgave,
What about my children, you owe them you,
What about my wife, what about my life,
I don’t know what tomorrow holds,
You just seem to be going away,
I carry your name, but I want much more,
Please be strong, like the decision you made that day,
I’m not ready, not for something…

The manuscript Blue Lines is the fictional coming of age narrative of a young California woman Key Yemaya Walker, and her 2 year growing journey through school, love, and life period piece, written by Kenneth Suffern, Jr., taking place at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill between the years of 1997 – 1998. Loosely based on true events, and experiences during that time, told through the eyes and voice of the main female protagonist, a freshman first attending the school.