#FMSPhotoADay – November – Day 8 – Someone I Miss – Drinking BluePrintCleanse and getting the old me back

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The manuscript Blue Lines is the fictional coming of age narrative of a young California woman Key Yemaya Walker, and her 2 year growing journey through school, love, and life period piece, written by Kenneth Suffern, Jr., taking place at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill between the years of 1997 – 1998. Loosely based on true events, and experiences during that time, told through the eyes and voice of the main female protagonist, a freshman first attending the school.

Updated: What I Learned Sundays – Opportunities

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Before I start this post, I would love to thank those who stop by and read Blue Lines Blog, though my manuscript has been a labour of love, for many years, and I’m trying to stay focused in: 1) being ready to share it; 2) sharing some thought, pieces, and ideas that detail it, the process, me, and excerpts…you guys have, since this time last Sunday,helped me break previous highs in my blogs readership multiple days last week. Words cannot express how I felt, and further pushed me to provide content, as just the rush, and weight of the first big day (Sunday) last week, had me wanting to lay low for awhile. Thank you all very much, I hope to be able to continue to exceed your expectations. Thank you!!!

The young man sat back, and as he gazed into her eyes, he realized that the chasm of time did not diminish his feelings.

Hiding out as New York is pelted with rain, and I have no jacket yet, I ask what does this mean? It’s not specific to YOU or any particular person, but yet a whole. Over the last few months, and this year rather, I have been able to reconnect with a myriad of friends and family, meet new people, have new experiences, but nothing hit more closer to home than being in New York this weekend, and spending time with friends that I have not seen ranging from 15 to 4 years. Granted we had renewed the relationships via facebook, in some part, but there is a marked difference in person.

Whether it was being picked up at JFK, karaoke in the Lower East Side, having Saturday brunch, and my new favorite The Smith, a bond was not renewed, or reconnected, but rather refreshed, it’s as if yesterday we were in school, and today was a Saturday or Sunday days after. I noticed a certain love/brotherhood/care that not even this expanse of time could change. It also helps you realize that these relationships we had then, and those new now, are very important. And I do guess that’s what even keeps YOU and I doing something.

What I Learned Sundays – Ruin (3/20/11)

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“…you ruined me, I don’t want to settle for anything else…”

 

A quote you will see in both major Blue Lines Blog posts this week, but I will get to that in some time.  This week was eventful that the “e-mail” that I have been vaguely mentioning very often in these posts came in 2 very different incarnations over the last 3-4 weeks.  Both transmissions, said two totally different things.  Subsequently, after learning a new type of patience, I do feel that I still have much to learn, that the 2007 – 08 version of myself would have learned much quicker, or should I say that version of myself was more grounded.

 

Unfortunately, the message I received was shocking, as it was unexpected, and after the work I had put in, the level of surprise was that much more intense.  While I sat bewildered, shocked, surprised, angry, annoyed, saddened and depressed for a brief time, that was a first for me (the depression), my fight or flight responses were on edge, as I had previously scheduled plans, that I had a big role in making happen, therefore I could not disappear…for an evening I had to hide in a public setting, which was both fortunate (I was not left to my own devices to possibly sulk), and unfortunate (I needed some time to clear my mind and thoughts).

 

Luckily I was afforded time to reflect on the entire situation the day after.  As I sat back, with the information still freshly imprinted in my mind, I thought of how I was leaving my decisions to this one piece of information.  Yes, in part I had made other choices as they pertained to this piece of information, but instead of the plan being a direction I was heading in, it was contingent on the perceived answer/outcome…between BBM messages between a good friend and I, the overriding tone of the day was “focus.”  Items that crossed my mind, “my continuing process of getting in my way,” “decisions contingent on myself,” “alignment with my goals,” Blue Lines, my future.

 

What I Learned Sundays – 2/20/11

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Now for much of what I’ve learned this week, you can look at my Blue Print Cleanse posts, as I discovered some things along that journey.
I Learned:
Some people are who you thought they were.
Impulse is not stupid.
Get out of your own way.
Via my cousin…”vajazzle,” really???
Treasure your family, if you will/would miss your family if something happened to them, you can fix it now.
Take time for yourself.
Have fun.
Live your life.
I loved my cleanse.
BLUE LINES!!!
9 posts in one day is alot.
foursquare not posting irritates me, although that may be a good thing, I’m making myself too public.

The manuscript Blue Lines is the fictional coming of age narrative of a young California woman Key Yemaya Walker, and her 2 year growing journey through school, love, and life period piece, written by Kenneth Suffern, Jr., taking place at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill between the years of 1997 – 1998. Loosely based on true events, and experiences during that time, told through the eyes and voice of the main female protagonist, a freshman first attending the school.

Blue Lines Blog: My Blue Print Cleanse Journey Day 2 (2/19/11)

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“We have to learn to get out of our own way.”

 

Day 2:

I woke up and could not move from the bed because of a debilitating headache that felt like a hangover.  I slightly started to question whether this cleanse was designed for the daily requirements of the male body.  But the lack of hunger racked my brain in trying to determine the cause.  I sat thinking of what I needed to do, as I catalogued what I had to.  I needed my hot water with lemon and cayenne pepper…I had no lemons.  Should I go to the store, or find something to use as a substitute here?  I eventually put in a few drops of lemonade, since I did not need to procrastinate in getting the process started.  The mixture was diluted enough that I did not feel bad about the addition.  I had noticed over that in day one, my frequency of going to the bathroom increased, likely due to the increase of my water intake.  However, I felt that must have adequately prepared because I had nothing else to evacuate.

 

Juice 1: Green Juice

Uno: I drank this en route to meet a friend at Starbucks. I drank green tea and water between my juices and had a decent conversation about a range of topics, the past, the future…how a Starbucks in Conyers atypically has an eclectic mix of customers come in and out of its doors, as opposed to let’s say, a Downtown Atlanta.  It was here that I learned my first lesson of the day, we as people have to get out of the way of what we can do.  I notice that you have wants for yourself personally, but for some reason we don’t do those things, make excuses for not being able to do those things.  There are some of us who try, but do not follow through fully.  Many of you have heard me say in the past that I wished I could say the things I need to say, when I need to say them.  I still feel that I don’t fully do that…somewhere fear still resides there.

Blue Lines Blog: My Blue Print Cleanse Journey Day 1 (2/18/11)

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OK, today is the day.  Now, to start the cleanse, I had a process of phasing out solid foods over a three day period.  I could have fish for dinner Tuesday, a salad for dinner Wednesday, and vegetable broth for dinner Thursday, the night before.  Tuesday went well, and the fish portion was less than I had expected.  Wednesday, I ha a little cheat with dinner, but Thursday I was fully on in anticipation of my detox and cleanse, and the first time using Blue Print Cleanse.

Friday morning was an odd mix of fatigue, and anticipation since I had spent the night on the phone with a great friend from school that I had not spoken to in some time.

 To give some background, our long phone conversations began when my “brother-from-another-mother” moved to California.  Due to the time difference I would suffer the brunt with a lack of rest because they conversations would go on, talking, debating, etc.  Oddly enough, after he went back to school in England and returned back to the states, and back home to New York…our conversations still seem to have the same time table.

Open Friday, I could drink a mix of hot water with lemon, and add cayenne pepper, if needed/wanted to start the day and hold me until my box of juices arrive.  Between working on items and reports, I made trips to see whether the FedEx truck had pulled to the front.

“no, not yet,” I thought while retreating back to my office.  I continued this exercise until I had to drop and item off, only to return to someone rumbling in my office, placing the box on the ground.

“I think it’s a phone,” she said.  “That’s what the delivery guy said he thought it was.”  I smiled, and grabbed my scissors and in haste opened the box, sliced my finger, looked at the blood, and felt to discern whether my juices were still cold.  I looked at the juice, then looked at the blood making its way to the surface of my finger.  Do I drink my first juice, or get a band aid?  I got the band aid, because if I had waited this long, a few more minutes would not make a difference.

 

Juice 1: Green Juice

Made of Romaine lettuce, Celery, Cucumber, Green Apple, Spinach, Kale, Parsley, and Lemon I had heard nightmare descriptions of its taste.  Granted, I had had green juices in past cleanses, another positive point that sold my on this product and had had one earlier this week, the flavor and consistency had a consistency that was not thick as other greens.  The flavor was easily palatable, and had a hint of a sweet tang, likely from the apple and lemon.  Not bad, I thought as I tried to focus on drinking my juices in an even schedule.

Being Stupid – My Message From Starbucks

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“…2 days ago I fell in love, today feels like my funeral…”
words by Diddy-Dirty Money


The manuscript Blue Lines is the fictional coming of age narrative of a young California woman Key Yemaya Walker, and her 2 year growing journey through school, love, and life period piece, written by Kenneth Suffern, Jr., taking place at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill between the years of 1997 – 1998. Loosely based on true events, and experiences during that time, told through the eyes and voice of the main female protagonist, a freshman first attending the school.

Blue Lines Blog: Prepping for my Blue Print Cleanse

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Why am I doing the Blue Print Cleanse? Is it to lose weight? Is it your new diet? Are you trying to shock your body? Why? Why? Why?

Well first, I’m not taking it because of it’s name…Blue Print – Blue Lines – Blue Hurt. I am not taking it to lose weight, I know what that takes and a lot of it is hard work and discipline. I’m not trying to shock my body.

Back around 2005 – 2006 I started to notice that I was putting on weight, and the erratic workout schedule included being content that I made it into the gym at least one day a week to lift. One day i sat back and realized that I was going in the wrong direction and had no structure in my workouts. I made a decision to change those habits. I began to run with frequency. I then added in a structured Monday/Wednesday/Friday lift routine accompanied by abdominal work and basketball on Tuesday/Thursday. I also had to change me erratic and bad eating habits. Results were slow and steady, but I was striving for my lofty goal of my high school weight of 180 lbs.

By 2007 my routine included early a.m. and lunch visits to the gym, and I completed both my workout regimens and runs each day. With friends, we began to use Nike SPARQ equipment and ran football drills every saturday morning. We had people who came to the field to run around its track ask us whether we were trainers. I laugh in retrospect. I even got my iPod Nano and Nike+ attachment to record my runs, my drive grew as my weight dropped. And although I was able to steady out around 188-185 lbs after having dropped between 50-60 lbs, I still was short of the goal of 180. Now, I had no complaints then, nor in retrospect, and I tried to think of new techniques to accomplish my goals, but I was extremely proud of my accomplishments.

Slowly life took over, a new job, slightly hampered my workouts, but I maintained the status quo. Our football drills began to die off after one too many Saturdays being the only person to show up, and I began to use my back yard for solo drills. I continued my running, and although I may not have made 2 trips to my gyms in one day, I at least had my one session in per day.

Well some good things do also pass, and I allowed life and personal dramas to take away my one perfect release, and slowly my regiment became disjointed in 2008, where I would have my runs of great workouts, and my bad weeks, but my progress was still positive enough to keep me within that 9% body fat range I had achieved and eventually drop to 170 lbs in December of 2008. 2009 was more of the same, I had good runs, but could not quite finish the regiment I had chosen. I did run my first Peachtree Road Race, and finished in 66 minutes (I thought I was at the finish and started walking).

Blue Lines Blog – Blue Print Cleanse (I Guess It Makes Sense)

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Sometimes if you want to do something, you just have to do it. Inspired by Va$htie, next week I am going to take my first Blue Print Cleanse journey!!!
http://www.blueprintcleanse.com/prepare.html


This Cleanse will gently rid your body of impurities, regain an alkaline balance and normalize digestion and metabolism. Too often, a cleanse stirs up detox symptoms that are far too intense for the “average” person. BPC is designed for people that would like to give their insides a rest while simultaneously going on about their daily lives. One needn’t gamble with extremes to feel the benefits of a Cleanse.
Prepare, prepare, prepare — we can’t stress this enough. The more prepared you are before your cleanse, the smoother your transition will be. This means: a few days leading up to your cleanse, cut down on all those delicious indulgences we love to love… phase out the coffee, the sugar, the meat and the dairy, and add fresh fruit, greens and veggies at every meal.