What I Learned Sunday – I Know Nothing – Father’s Day

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“…as you move through this life, and this world, you change things slightly, you leave marks behind, however small. And in return, life and travel leaves marks on you. Most of the time, those marks on your body, or your heart are beautiful. Often though, they hurt…” ~ Anthony Bourdain

After 42 years, I’m honest enough to say, ‘I know nothing.’ Life happens the way it is supposed, and it may not develop as you decided to plan out. There were days that I sought out certain goals and places in my life…a route that I had full control of. Times before, I was the great and cool uncle. I’ve experienced devotion and love in that role, from calming my nieces, to travel vast distances regularly to see their development from an infant to a toddler and adolescent. I don’t know what it is to be a father. To stand there in awe as my child is being born. To face my insecurities as I try guide this precious life in the right direction and not project what I want onto them.

Each day, I’m learning what it feels like to be a father. I’m about 2.5 to 3 years late, but to marvel at this young life. There is nothing that melts your heart like a 3 year old telling you she ‘loves you,’ nor is there pain like when she cries when you leave on an airplane after telling her that ‘the last time you left, was the last time that you were going to leave.’

I easily remember a time that I said that I was ‘lucky,’ to be corrected that I was ‘blessed.’ This little girl has blessed, and remanufactured our lives in ways that can not be explained. As I right this, I’m her jungle gym…among other things.

On this Father’s Day, I can’t tell you that I understand my parents, or my father. I surely can’t tell you that I’m experienced or an expert on this, I learn multiple new things each day. I’m wowed by the person she is, daily, and I’ve learned a new type of love. Everyday I’m thankful.

The manuscript Blue Lines is the fictional coming of age narrative of a young California woman Key Yemaya Walker, and her 2 year growing journey through school, love, and life period piece, written by Kenneth Suffern, Jr., taking place at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill between the years of 1997 – 1998. Loosely based on true events, and experiences during that time, told through the eyes and voice of the main female protagonist, a freshman first attending the school

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Text Tuesdays – New Prose – “…on my mind”

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We met as children,
Red clay on our hands,
Brown sun burned bodies,
Smiles as we watched long days…
Melt into southern sunsets,

With time I got older,
I yearned to leave,
My Mom didn’t like you,
The taste of peaches,
I remembered on my lips,

I went home,
Where I felt right,
Sometimes I missed you,
But I didn’t think of you often,
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Music Mondays – Red Hot Chili Peppers – “Scar Tissue”

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This is likely the most Blue Lines related post in quite some time. The epitome of my 1999, and my first road trip. Prior to that, the furthest I may have gone was…Atlanta (further west than anything in GA).
A trip to research for my manuscript, that was my first time out West. There was enough money for food and gas, a selection of CD’s and Cassettes, and no responsibilities in life. I saw the mastering of the “Around the World” video, found out how wrong I was about some manuscript aspects, and didn’t want to leave. That said, “Scar Tissue.”

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The manuscript Blue Lines is the fictional coming of age narrative of a young California woman Key Yemaya Walker, and her 2 year growing journey through school, love, and life period piece, written by Kenneth Suffern, Jr., taking place at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill between the years of 1997 – 1998. Loosely based on true events, and experiences during that time, told through the eyes and voice of the main female protagonist, a freshman first attending the school.

Celebrating the Life of Prince O(+> 2 Years Later – A Different Take – C Week Ƭ̵̬̊

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Instead of talking about that day, how I felt, or loss, this year I will be different and a celebration. The first year was shock, and Coachella tributes, last year (2017) was my tattoo and party on the anniversary.

In 2011, I made a last minute decision to travel to California…mind you, Los Angeles. In the process of that trip, a late decision was made to attend the Prince residency at the historic Fabulous Forum in Inglewood California on 4/21/11. The building had been recently returned to its venue status, after being a church since the teams had left years ago for Staples Center.

After an already full day, with a game of the Atlanta Braves beating the Los Angeles Dodgers, however losing the series, my iPhone died as we pulled into the Forum parking lot. Excited to see Prince, though the scalped price of $100 per ticket, for face value $25 tickets was not agreeable, especially through my nemesis StubHub, we arrived, and you could hear The Time performing through the paper-thin walls of the building.

Initially our tickets scanned as “already entered,” and I just shook my head on the money spent, knowing that I could’ve gotten legitimate tickets, though we later found out that the tickets were just printed multiple times. Upon entering, the set list was as follows:
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Hip-Hop Quotable Wednesdays – Pulitzer Prize Kendrick Lamar feat Rihanna – “LOYALTY.” C Week

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Last years glo-up, Pulitzer Prize winning artist and album (2018).
[DJ Dahi:]
I said I’m geeked and I’m fired up (fired, fire)
All I want tonight is just get high up (high, high, high)
Girl, you look so good, it’s to die for (die for)
Ooh, that p—y good, it’s to die for (on fire)

[Kendrick Lamar & Rihanna:]
It’s a secret society
All we ask is trust
(All we ask is trust)
All we got is us
Loyalty, loyalty, loyalty
Loyalty, loyalty, loyalty

[Kendrick Lamar:]
Kung Fu Kenny now
My resume is real enough for two millenniums
A better way to make a wave, stop defendin’ them
I meditate and moderate all of my wins again
I’m hangin’ on the fence again
I’m always on your mind
I put my lyric and my lifeline on the line
And ain’t no limit when I might shine, might grind
You rollin’ with it at the right time, right now
(Only for the dollar sign)
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Music Mondays – Cardi B – “Bodak Yellow” C Week

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Not a fan…but when she went mammo with that hood lamaze class performance yesterday, you get all the props chick. #SlowClap #CardiChella

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The manuscript Blue Lines is the fictional coming of age narrative of a young California woman Key Yemaya Walker, and her 2 year growing journey through school, love, and life period piece, written by Kenneth Suffern, Jr., taking place at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill between the years of 1997 – 1998. Loosely based on true events, and experiences during that time, told through the eyes and voice of the main female protagonist, a freshman first attending the school.

Hip-Hop Quotable Wednesdays – Ab-Soul, Anderson .Paak, & James Blake – “Bloody Waters”

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[Ab-Soul:]
Meet the man in the mask
Meet the man in the mask
[James Blake:]
All those days and all that stays and
I don’t keep it
I won’t be here for it
All those days and all that stays and
I don’t keep it though
I won’t be here for it

[Anderson .Paak:]
Yes Lord, huh
Hail Mary’s in the sky
Bossed up let’s get buried alive
Head on the throne ’cause that’s where I reside (reside)
Ways of the world that we won’t survive
Something’s in the water
My n—a we lawless (lawless)
Please move with caution
Who set the fair way? (fair way)
Damn right I need all this (all this)
Yeah Jack I need all this, eyy
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Music Mondays – Little Dragon – “Best Friends”

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Best Friends
The manuscript Blue Lines is the fictional coming of age narrative of a young California woman Key Yemaya Walker, and her 2 year growing journey through school, love, and life period piece, written by Kenneth Suffern, Jr., taking place at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill between the years of 1997 – 1998. Loosely based on true events, and experiences during that time, told through the eyes and voice of the main female protagonist, a freshman first attending the school.

Cover Sundays – Meshell Ndegeocello – “Sometimes It Snows In April” – Prince Cover

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meshell-ndegeocello
The manuscript Blue Lines is the fictional coming of age narrative of a young California woman Key Yemaya Walker, and her 2 year growing journey through school, love, and life period piece, written by Kenneth Suffern, Jr., taking place at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill between the years of 1997 – 1998. Loosely based on true events, and experiences during that time, told through the eyes and voice of the main female protagonist, a freshman first attending the school.

New To You Music Sundays – RL Grime feat Daya – “I Wanna Know”

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RL Grime
The manuscript Blue Lines is the fictional coming of age narrative of a young California woman Key Yemaya Walker, and her 2 year growing journey through school, love, and life period piece, written by Kenneth Suffern, Jr., taking place at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill between the years of 1997 – 1998. Loosely based on true events, and experiences during that time, told through the eyes and voice of the main female protagonist, a freshman first attending the school.